![]() The ones that cause me more anxiety, but I think of less frequently, have to do with insects (if I think of them I can’t eat because I know they are inside my mouth instead of food) or extremely violent images that replay over and over again in graphic detail… like thinking of a fun outing the next day with a friend and imagining them being crushed or killed over and over again in a very specific way.”ġ6. The ones I have trouble with the most often have to do with contracting or being unaware I have a deadly disease. “I have endless intrusive thoughts mostly due to OCD. I have three young nephews I love to death, but I’m often scared to be near them sometimes, even though I know I would never act on my thoughts because I find them so disturbing and would hate to inflict that kind of pain to my nephews, since I’ve had to live with the aftermath of that happening to me… I wouldn’t wish what happened to me on my worst enemy.” Advertisementġ5. “I was sexually molested as a baby, so my brain decided that’s a great thing to keep throwing at me. I could never physically hurt someone so those ones are very disturbing as I wonder if I’m an evil person who secretly wants to do those things.”ġ4. “Horrible images of me hurting someone or me being sliced with a knife by someone. ![]() “I see myself sitting on the window ledge ready to jump, or walking to the window to throw myself out, with a sudden urge to do it.”ġ3. “I get thoughts/impulses like ‘ pour the hot water on yourself’ when pouring the water from the kettle to make tea, or ‘ put your hand in the flame.’ Usually when I’m feeling very pressured/anxious.”ġ2. Stick a fork in the electric socket.’ I could go on forever.”ġ1. It’s a scary existence when you can’t get away from your own mind.”ġ0. I’m afraid of losing control of myself or consciousness and while I’m out I’ll murder the person closest to me. I hate it and I’m so afraid of it that I would sometimes avoid being near family members.” Advertisementĩ. The phobia still lingers now, but it’s lessening.”Ħ. It got to the point where I became phobic of knives and scissors. “I’m not a violent person, but I used to get very violent, horrific intrusive thoughts which terrified me. It always comes at the most random times too.”ĥ. Like, I’ll be chopping veggies with a big knife and my brain will go, ‘you could just put that through your hand.’ I never would, but it scares me that my brain chooses to acknowledge that I could. “I have random thoughts of hurting myself badly. There never seems to be an obvious cause or trigger but it’s really upsetting.”Ĥ. I’ll walk into a room expecting to see a dead body, or pull the shower curtain back expecting to see someone hanging in there. I’ll see really graphic and violent scenes play out in front of me in my mind. “ something truly awful is about to happen. “ people do see me as a burden - that I’m not really liked much, and my friends just tolerate me because they feel sorry for me.”ģ. If you have thoughts that disturb you, know there’s nothing wrong with you, and there is help. Reminder: Some of the thoughts are hard to read, but people who have intrusive thoughts are not dangerous or likely to act upon them. If you’ve had any of these thoughts stuck in your head, you’re not alone - and you certainly shouldn’t be ashamed. That’s why we asked our mental health community to share some of the intrusive thoughts they live with. Naming intrusive thoughts and taking away that shame can be the first step in learning how to manage them - instead of letting them control you. ![]() Would I hurt a baby? Better jump every time I see a baby, just to be sure - just in case.īut it’s important to remember that thoughts are not facts or actions, and many people feel unnecessary shame and guilt over thoughts in their head they have no control over. Will my mother die today? Better brush my teeth three times to get the thought out of my head. For people with obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD), these thoughts can be even more graphic and persistent, leading to compulsions devised to get rid of them.
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